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various fun gang ships 4 pride ig :)
and the boy
#deltarune#kris deltarune#kris dreemurr#susie deltarune#noelle deltarune#noelle holiday#berdly deltarune#ralsei deltarune#lancer deltarune#kriselle#suselle#kerdly#krerdly#krusie#kralsei#krisei#ralsusie#the fun gang#wait does this count as pixel art. for this style i just draw at a really low resolution then double it cuz i like the look of it#anyway. ships :)#was tempted to draw a fuckload of em including rarepairs that no one but me has thought about.#but then decided against it bcuz it would suck to tag#and also i have no idea what the ship name for ralsei x berdly is. but would be intrested to find out lol-#also can u guess my favorite :3c#(sorry for the wall of tags i just felt like rambling. happy pride month)#(once again needed to get this out b4 it ended lol)
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When Mapicc did things that hurt Zam she was okay with laying her head low, apologising, changing her morals, working around her oath, and sticking by Mapicc.
Zam did things that hurt Mapicc. They were never directed at him, Often they were done out of refusal to fight him directly. Yet Mapicc still saw the lack of support during Mawn, and how Zam threw hearts at Bacon (when he was their enemy) as betrayal. And was hurt.
Due to Mapicc’s reactions to being hurt being usually violent, and directed towards Zam, it’s easier for his feelings and needs to be overshadowed compared to Zam’s in discussions. Because he sees himself as the victim even after being the perpetrator of some real damaging stuff - stuff that is often way worse than the what is done against him. Because yeah, Despite everything that happened to both of them, Mapicc is sitting on a comfortable 20 hearts, while Zam is on 4 BECAUSE of Mapicc and how many times she has been killed by him. Mapicc’s response to things is usually fighting and violence. He has self preservation and self interest very high on his priority list. While Zam’s n1 response to situations is usually self sabotage. That’s why their conflicts work so well. Zam throws herself at Mapicc many times, and just accepts whatever the outcome is (most of the time she knows she’s gonna lose).
But still Mapicc’s original worries and feelings are still valid. And they come out of a place of care for Zam and insecurity in himself. He just doesn't know how to deal with them. When he’s in a heated discussion with Zam he starts saying how "if killing you is gonna end this conversation, then i will do it” just another way of saying “i would rather hurt you than deal with my own feelings”.
It’s crazy to me that they both seem to not see the care and effort they each put into their relationship. it seems to be all about "who used who more" when, it genuinely is not about that. (Recently yes. Mapicc admitted to using Zam for the flame fight when wanting to cut her off. and yesterday he wanted to use her to get Mane with the arrow cannon). But all this talk about using one another is.. Quite frankly useless.
When Mapicc first mentioned the feeling of being used by Zam, it was all about his jealousy towards Derapchu, Zam’s new 20 heart teammate, and not being included in plans anymore. He felt like Zam was just calling him whenever she was in danger and needed help. Yet during *that talk* After the flame void trap, Zam asked Mapicc to stay by her side, and Mapicc refused. And says “if you ever need help with a fight or are in a dire situation. call me”, when he was accusing Zam of only using him for fights prior to this. Almost like a self-fulfilling prophecy. He only sees Himself useful in pvp. So mainly renders himself available for pvp fights. Or it could be projection? He accuses others of seeing him only for PVP skill. When He's the first one to do that. During the same talk he says “I provide what? pvp skill, that’s what i'm saying bro, that’s all i'm good for” And assumes everyone else does too… And I genuinely think this is what this misunderstanding all boils down to: Mapicc’s insecurities about himself, and his place next to people. After a teamless season, Zam pulling away might’ve gone better if it didn’t, in his eyes, prove exactly Mapicc’s worries. (but he's also an hypocrite as he's the first one to throw Zam away when the empire logged back on).
Mapicc pushes his feelings, and Zam, away. Says he didn’t mean the apology that day, because being angry has always been easier than being vulnerable for Mapicc. And this time Zam just doesn’t take it. All this time of having Mapicc’s insecurities being projected onto her, Mapicc actually uses her for the creeking thing, blows up her flower field and he couldn't be more blunt about his hatred for her, when all she's done is be there for him. And she snaps. “Mapicc should’ve known him this way. He just used me”, and looks back and picks apart every single thing Mapicc has done wrong to her, which to be fair. There is a lot. But also conveniently leaves out all of the hearts he gave her, she leaves out how many times Mapicc jumped back into a fight just to try and save Zam, Even though it didn’t benefit him directly. She leaves out how the other day Mapicc left her a heart in a chest. When you have the full picture you KNOW these two care about each other.
They’re so used to being by each other's side, and so bad at communicating the care they have for one another, that the second something goes wrong all they’re left with is their unresolved feelings, that they never got over, and use it as a weapon to hurt the other.
When Zam accuses Mapicc of using her, he replies “how did I use you, what did I get out of you exactly”. Even telling Minute “how did I use him, he’s the dropper” again giving this image of how he sees other’s (and by extension his) value through their fighting skills. As if "It wouldn't make sense that he would use Zam, because she is not as skilled as pvp as him". This of course isn’t what he actually believes. It was almost what he wanted Zam to believe, (and what he wants to believe himself, but he cannot even stick to this version in his head, as he replies that "I never said you did nothing" to Zam. when that's exactly what he was implying) because that is easier to explain, it makes more sense for “Mapicc” to believe that than for him to admit a “i care about you”.
And when Mapicc was alone with his thoughts, he thought about what Zam was saying to him... Did he actually use her? He says that, if he did, it wasn't on purpose.... Well except that one time. Which he sees as justified since Zam gave hearts to his enemy! Bacon... who... is now his teammate...... huh.... and the team really wants them to reconcile and he realizes that it just not might be his call as he was the one that farmed her until she was at 4 hearts... hmmm........ I'm so excited to see where this will go.
#princezam#mapicc#devotion duo#lifesteal smp#letyhide rambles#devotions#im sorry for always bringing up the talk from when flame void trapped Mapicc#it genuinely changed my life#its chill tho#mapicc yesterday implied something about like “i HAD to apologize"#making it seem like she didnt mean it. and just apologized because he felt like Zam would stick by his side#which kinda feeds into Zams ideas of “hes using me”#but Mapicc wasn't planning on playing the server much at that point#why would he need to lie?#he said he wanted to “make things right”. and reminded Zam time and time again how they were still teammates#idk#whatever#lifesteal spoilers#its also so intresting as Zam used to be in Mapiccs position kinda#hearing the other say “you used me” and sit back and think “wait...did i?”#and for mapiccs case he did...#but also previous to the recent stuff#he says he didnt mean to#which..... mhhmmm sounds similair#theyre insane#okay ill stop#im just saying shit idk how coherent this is#idk if there was even a point to this post#just looking back and reflecting i guess
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I wish some aces would stop excluding other aces with complex sexual experiences. like I get why but you have to realize that being ace does not mean they don't enjoy sexual experiences and it's weird when you complain about allo people and boil it down to "people who have sexual experiences" and also shame people for their sex life and kinks as if your own community doesnt INCLUDE those people. because there are other aces out there who still masturbate, who feel sexually attracted to their own body, who barely experiences sexual attraction but still enjoys sex, who like consuming sexual media, who like sfw kink. being ace is so so much more complex than just "disliking sex". and also aromantic exclusionism in the same genre of posts is something i see a lot. especially aro allos. I hate hate hate seeing a community that SHOULD be inclusive boil down sexuality and exclude people.
#okay to reblog#if you reblog this post to argue or whatever though im killing you this is about my personal queer experiences not a discourse post#feel free to add your own experiences if youre aceflux demisexual whatever. i love you guys.#rambling#rant#messy writing sorry#but as an aroace myself i just felt like i had to get it out i guess#i always feel like im not ace enough but im not allo enough to be either#aroace#arospec#aromantic#asexual#acespec#ace#aceflux#aroflux#demiromantic#demisexual#lbgtqia#lbgtq#queer#text post#vent#queer community
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Would the Hazel puppet we see in a few of the shows episodes be a kind of very basic changeling? Its obviously made out of way less unwishes than Chimmy but the similarities are too striking to be ignored.
YES! YES IT ISS.
Hazel's puppet is a very basic changeling. So basic, that it's only purpose is to complete one specific set of actions. When those actions are done, it disappears! It's quite literally and physically a sock puppet.
The differences between Hazel's changeling and Timmy's changeling is that their lifespans and construction is different. They serve different purposes.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
More information about changelings that's ultimately just world building ramblings. Lotsa paragraphs.
Hazel's changeling is short lived, low on unwishes, and more specific to the job.
Her changeling is a one-and-done tool. It only has to do one thing. "Distract the Teacher." "Distract the Mother." So it doesn't need a lot of unwishes, it just needs enough to do its job! As a result, it is made of low quality cloth, it can't verbalize, and it doesn't make its own actions.
Hazel's changeling favors Perceptional Magic. This is why Mr. Guzman doesn't recognize that Hazel's changeling isn't Hazel. He can't see that it's made of felt and sticks. It's constantly pooling out perception magic to warp how its being viewed.
For this reason, the changeling doesn't actually need as much connections as Timmy's does. It can exist by itself, or with Hazel, so long as it has just enough Unwishes to keep it alive. Maybe not stable, but, alive.
By contrast, Timmy' changeling is on the opposite end of this spectrum.
Timmy's changeling is a continuous tool. It must persist and adapt and grow. "Go to school" "Get a job" "Find a partner". It needs many unwishes to face many situations and scenarios. So the changeling has a more difficult build.
The magic it favors is different. Timmy's changeling requires Environmental Magic. People see it for how it looks. It has human skin and can speak the human tongue. But what it requires is a suitable environment. Otherwise, people will know it for what it is. Wooden and hollow.
The more developed and high-tech the Changeling is, the less it's recommended for it to see it's real counterpart. The bigger the amount of Unwishes, the more you want it to be stable and calm. Especially when that changeling's job is "Be Human".
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop hazel wells#fop hazel#hazel wells#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#chimmy changa#asks#itty bitties fop au#do you prefer a muppet puppet or a ventriloquist dummy?#well that depends on what you need the puppet for#one can entertain children to an extent. but the other is needed for far bigger tasks#if youve seen Coraline then its a bit easier to visualize?#coraline's doll was used to lure her into the 'other world'. it looks exactly like coraline. its made FOR coraline. it APPEALS to coraline.#but the doll for coraline's parents is half assed. all it needed to do was spot the parents. its to the point and that was it.#ahjheh#can u tell im a bit bonkers about this#anyways there's also other forms of changelings for other tasks. you could make one out of porcelain for example!#timmy's was made of wood because it had to be very durable.#hazel's was made of felt because it just had to look like her#although i guess both changelings are a bit flawed somewhat.#OUGGH THE SPEED OF WHICH I WENT THRU TO FINISH THIS#I WORKED SO FAST BCS IW WANTE TO RAMBLE LOTS AND LOTS#i wanted to draw a diagram but then i realized the post woulbd be even LONGER than it should be.
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reading old journal entries is like. i take myself firmly by the shoulders. you are not fundamentally evil you are just fifteen
#i was always writing with a hyper awareness that my future self would be reading it#like i felt like i was looking over my own shoulder and i was self conscious about it#and i was always apologizing or asking my future self to forgive me for being dramatic or emo#i couldn’t stand the thought of not being self aware#but reading back now it’s like. girl. i like you. it’s fine.#you’re having a completely normal response to being fifteen. it’s just like that. it’s really okay#i guess i am still looking over her shoulder but mostly i’d just like to hug her#anna rambles
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It's been rotating in my brain for a while, so I decided to compile my thoughts about the parallels between anaxa and sunday in terms of the way their writing, personality and themes align with one another. At this point, I don't believe this is coincidental.
Anaxa sees reason and emotion as coexisting concepts instead of opposing ends. he rejects himself but he doesn't reject his humanity. he rejects his life but doesn't reject his personhood. he debatably has more faith in his students than he does in himself, because he puts so much trust in them to continue his work. to question everything. to forsake everything. to prove everything he can because he has nothing to lose. he guards his theories with his life because its literally all he has left. and i just like how antideterministic it is. they're doomed but he proves its not humanity being doomed by the gods, its humanity's ability to both doom and save itself.
the parallels between sunday and anaxa are best summed up by these two quotes from their respective trailers:
sunday: knowing there were no gods who could save people unconditionally. to change anything, you can only rely on yourself.
anaxa: gods, decry it as blasphemy - if that is all you can do [...] we alone are the true gods of this world.
How can they believe there's such a thing as a god after all they've lost? A line that particularly stuck out to me in anaxa's stories was cerces's goading of anaxa, asking him if he prayed to the titans upon seeing his hometown ruined and his sister dead. It disclosed a deeper, more personal sentiment anaxa has towards the titans than a mere desire to erase their existence. For anaxa, forsaking the gods means to wrestle control back to humanity's hands, to his hands, in the face of an uncontrollably tragic fate.
In this sense, both anaxa and sunday must deal with a desire for control, doing so by getting their respective gods out of the equation. I think Sunday's words at the grand theatre are incredibly important to this point, and indicate just how similar (if, of course, different circumstantially) their characters and arcs are:
Sunday: My desire is not to resurrect a fallen Aeon, or become one myself... my sole objective is to create a paradise free from Aeons, where the Order ensures the dignity and happiness of all humanity. A paradise exclusive to us human beings".
Sunday, for all his religious theming and imagery, wishes to forsake the gods in favour of an order of safety, to be the sole person remaining awake to guard the dreaming. I think it's very interesting that thematically, anaxa is framed as chaotic, wishing to disrupt the status quo, a perceived opposite to sunday, who in fact shares many more similarities with his mindset than you'd imagine. They both want to liberate mankind from the gods, so their fates won't be inextricably tied to the gods' whims, having grown disillusioned with them. Here however, the stark difference in their methods comes into play: while sunday's desire for humanity's happiness is regrettably robbing it of agency, anaxa's desire for humanity to gain its agency back is knowingly robbing them of their faiths.
Sunday doesn't have faith in humanity's ability to overcome hardships, and in order to be their protector, he decided to usurp the role of a god - he saw horrors so severe, that he felt he had to shoulder their protection for himself. Sunday operates by his sense of anxiety which inadvertently disclosed his lack of faith, taking things into his own hands to ensure they will go as well as possible - he can ensure the success and happiness of humanity only if he takes the burden upon himself and sees it through with his own hands. He feels only he can, or really must, be the responsible person who can shoulder the burden of protecting humanity, which inadvertently strips them of agency. Meanwhile, anaxa's entire thesis is based on his own disillusionment with the gods and faith in humanity, that his plan and eventual usurping of the titan position was in service of proving humanity's agency over the titans by their being identical beings. Anaxa has so much faith in humanity, to the point of disregarding his life and physical existence and completely trusting his students to continue what he can't finish. The blasphemer is driven by faith in humanity, while the believer is driven by distrusting the gods.
To their respective ends, they both decide to pose themselves as antagonists in the eyes of the public in order to ascend to a higher position at the expense of their own lives and well being. They're both themed and viewed as performers of sorts (depicted in stage settings, the performer and the conductor), which on the surface level, epitomise sunday as an organizer, a puppeteering figure, a follower of Order, and anaxa as the wild stage performer, a soliloquy giver, disrupting the audience's understandings of the world into chaos. I contend, however, that the complete opposite is true, making these parallels all the more compelling. Sunday's performance is entirely puppeteered and driven by his sense of anxiety, desperation, and an urge to escape reality, not being able to withstand its horrors - the order hides personal chaos. On the other side of the coin, anaxa's performance is the epitome of calculated, an argument and theory decades in the making, meant to be his final proof so he can leave the world that pained him behind to his students to nourish and give a final sacrifice for his equivalent exchange - the chaos hides personal order.
These two opposing ideas disclose the paralleling approaches anaxa and sunday take in regards to their ideals, and their differences in mental fortitude and personality. Anaxa is very self assured that his method will lead to his desired outcomes, marches entirely to the beat of his own drum, passing his thoughts to his cherished students and trusting them to continue what he doesn't believe he can survive to accomplish. Sunday, on the other hand, is defined by his insecurity, being surrounded by the hostile environment of the family, the younger figure thrust into a position of power through manipulation, and being forced to conform to it. Anaxa's figure is that of a teacher, an authority, while Sunday was inherently stuck in the position of a novice political figure, forced to sway according to the authorities around him.
Probably one of the most dominant aspects paralleling anaxa to sunday is both of their incredibly meaningful and impactful bonds they share with their sisters. While in sunday's case his bond takes central stage and in anaxa's stage we can only infer based on the little that is mentioned about it, I think it is no less significant to a thorough understanding of his character and motivations.
In both cases, two young siblings are left to fend off for themselves as their parents either die at the hands of war (sunday and robin) or decide to abandon their children (anaxa and his sister). And as such, they're each other's most meaningful connections in the world. Sunday owes robin his dream of a utopia, her ever supporter because her happiness is his, cementing his dedicating his life for the sake of others. In a similar vein, anaxa owes his sister his education, his access to knowledge, to experiments, to what is going to shape his life ambitions. However, I think what ties these characters further together is this sense of debt towards their sisters, in a way that feeds their selflessness and becomes their central means to achieve their goals.
Anaxa, in what I can infer from his character stories, genuinely views his life as disposable after his sister's death. His philosophical emphasis on equivalent exchange is, in large part, a reflection of his guilt towards his sister and her sacrifice - allowing him to study at the grove, at the expense of her own life the moment he left. In order for him to be worthy of her sacrifice - or the exchange to be equivalent - he must give away everything in order to achieve his goal. He must continuously chip away at his body, and his spirit, while insisting on retaining his heart and person, in order to make her death have meaning, for the rules of the world to make sense.
They're both so riddled with guilt, to the point it becomes their driving force. Both of their most significant human connections were to their sisters, feeling such an intense amount of debt towards both of them, that this sense of owing encourages them to keep chipping away at themselves in a subconscious effort to live up to both of their sister's "sacrifices" (robin's is more metaphorical). The kindness they received makes them eager to sacrifice more and more of themselves, creating a core of guilt that serves as their motivation to keep losing themselves for their grander goal.
The following portion of anaxa's 'chrysos' volume drew more parallels between the two in a way I can only interpret as being intentional, at the foremost through the use of the songbird motif. While sunday's charmony dove allegory bears no need to repeat, and I could write about it for hours, the following quote by anaxa is meaningful:
anaxa: I once carved a songbird that miraculously flapped its wings and took to the sky, though it circled five times at low altitude before falling...
As it is explicitly told, sunday's turning point in his life and ideology was finding the charmony dove and having to confront the moral dilemma, a choice he viewed to be between freedom and security. His anxiety began to take root, as he had to watch the bird he nursed back to health attempt to fly again, and watch it plummet to its death, cementing in his minds that the weak, those he cherishes, are better kept secure than free. Ironically, he doesn't realise that he himself is stuck in such a cage, terrified of flying, and how his thought process ends up straining his relationship with the same person he so wishes to protect.
I don't think it's coincidental that anaxa chooses to emphasize the fact that the bird he manifested into life, also met its death a short amount of time after it was created by his hands. They're both left unsatisfied - they both must strive to do better, to either preserve life (sunday) or to create life (anaxa), so long as they can make sense of death. Both of these incidents end up solidifying and crystallizing their worldviews: they must sacrifice more of themselves in order to achieve their dreams. Be it a boundless utopia in sunday's case - posing himself as the sole guarding figure who shelters humanity from the terrors of existence regardless of the gods; or achieving transcendence and reaching an absolute truth in anaxa's case - by, similarly, posing himself as the one who must chip away at himself in order to prove, and give meaning, to humanity's existence regardless of the gods.
And perhaps most tragically, eventually, both sunday and anaxa were forced to sacrifice a part of themslves and lose the things they were most scared of losing. Anaxa, who was willing to sacrifice his physical well being, is forced to sacrifice his imprints on history and theory, sacrificing others memories of him, his legacy, his achievements. Sunday, whose drive for the betterment of others arose first and foremost from how much he cherished his only family, had to sacrifice his connection to her, the person closest to him, so he could protect her - they are torn apart, while ever present in each others' minds.
Something about these two, and their relationship to faith, the gods, their families, and worldviews, is deeply compelling in its similarity. They should meet up.
#vi rambling#hsr#UHM. HHHAHA SORRY THIS IS REALLY LONG#im not good at being succinct. and i haven't written meta in a very long time.#i hope any of this makes any sense.... ive just been trying to pinpoint#what is the similar themahic vibe im getting from both of them.#it felt at first like im just insane about my two favorite little guys in the game. but the more content they put out#the more i was proven right.#this is mostly a thematic comparative analysis so of course#some things get simplified. but#honestly. they will both talk endlessly about philosophy its just in their nature.#anyways. my hypercarry anaxa sunday robin team ily forever and youre never changing. favs on main or nothing!!!#IDK WHAT TO TAG THIS.#hsr meta#hsr anaxa#hsr sunday#I GUESS??? IDK!!!#i also got a terrible illness got being repetitive so. apologies in advance#vi.analysis
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ngl I've been increasingly struggling with the use of feminizing language and "but make them women" stuff in my main fandoms, all of which are about queer Asian men. It's always bothered me but I feel like it's bothering me even more now, and I'm not sure if that's because it's become more prevalent or if I'm getting more sensitive to it. I just can't help but want to point out, like...
1. If yall want women and lesbians... you know there are fandoms... with women and lesbians... right? Women and lesbians are great! I'm begging you to go read stories that actually are about them.
2. Like seriously if you want stories about women why are you in the gay guy bl fandom
3. White fans please unpack why you think that lithe Asian gay man needs to be a woman, needs to be pregnant, why you are calling him breedable, or babygirl, or malewife. Like I am begging people who do this to spend five minutes considering why they do, why you think it's okay, why it's maybe different than saying even the same things about white people, like yall just collectively forgetting decades of racist feminizing language weaponized against Asian men.
I'm not saying anything I haven't said before but it's just been really A Lot recently if I have to see one more post about any MXTX character needing to be a breedable malewife maid I'm going to scream.
Note: this is NOT about trans head canons or trans stuff. I love trans masc and trans fem stuff. Don't stop.
(Disclaimer: I am also white.)
Also note like... this isn't about any specific fan having a preference. People like mpreg. People like gender swaps. That's great! I support an individual's preferences! But just because behavior is okay on an individual level, that doesn't mean it doesn't start to get a little awkward at a collective fandom level. And idk, it's hard to divorce my personal discomfort with some of these things from an assessment of if it's actually ~a problem~ so maybe I'm just not recognizing my own issues here, but... yeah. I keep starting to write more then deleting it so I guess I'll shut up now.
#unforth rambles#ive been brewing this a while but seeing a which mxtx lead is most breedable poll is apparently my breaking point#im gonna put in tags what i stopped myself from putting in the main tag cause it felt manipulative#but if im honest if this trend doesnt stop especially in tgcf#im not sure ill be able to keep going into the main tag to look for art#its like a fucking bombardment its exhausting i dont want xie lian to be a pregnant woman actually#and its okay if you do like okay you do you#but i just dont get why this is getting so popular in these fandoms#its really not for me and if this is the direction that tumblr fandom for these characters is trending#then i guess tumblr fandom for these fandoms wont be for me#like i get that this may be a me problem but then to escape the me problem the solution will be that i leave#i dont want to do that but#alternatively i may have to block huge swaths of the fandom
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It's kinda funny looking back on old screenshots and edits I made 3-5 years ago because in a way they have changed a LOT yet at the same time also not all although the fact that my old computer could barely handle having FFXIV installed is kinda evident in hindsight lol
#ive played for 11 years now but its only as of july last year that i actually have a computer i can go nuts on#with editing and good graphics etc which is probably why ive felt such a stark jump in my abilities#like its MUCH easier to edit by hand when your pc doesnt freeze up and making the screen black out anytime you draw a stroke too long LOL#its kinda funny looking back though because i still rely on things i learned way before gpose was added to the game#to the point where i often forget there are new fancy tools i can use to help the process#and thats despite having used the crimetools for way longer than i havent at this point#same with gpose..... god. that shit was added january 2017 i think. so thats 3 years of learning when to pause at the right time#and using walls to angle the camera and to try and time weather and multiple tries in case skill effects looked off etc etc#honestly since i cant do much photography these days whether that be of people or of bjds gpose is like a balm to my soul#anyway im rambling LMFAO just a lot of nostalgia when looking back. ill have to hunt down some REALLY old screens at some point#just to compare with my newer ones!!! kind of insane to think about this as a skill one can improve on#especially now that suddenly its been like a decade almost of consistently doing it and yet i never stopped to truly think about it#as anything other than a thing you just do???? idk. i have a disconnect to myself and art as a concept i guess LMAO#art is what OTHER people do in my brain. *I* just fuck around to try things out for fun#anyway....#silvi talks
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Fais fanfic rambles: Introduction to my 'Selkies by Starlight' ISaT AU
Note: Not to be confused with @looped-140-and-counting / Soren_793's wonderful Selkie AU oneshot series 'The Northern Islanders are Selkies' which was hugely inspiring for this if potentially VERY different in vibe (we got very into talking about cloaks! XD)
Basic premise/summary:
In an alternate version of the precanon adventure, the party lead by Mirabelle to stop the King freezing Vaugarde in time, recruit Siffrin as per usual.
Thing is, Siffrin is a Selkie.
A very skittish selkie without a cloak of their own, who openly wears the cloak of another, and due to Reasons is under the impression that the party know all both of those things and the Implications about them, and for whatever reason have decided to welcome him into their group anyway.
Which er, he's completely wrong about as the party know absolutely nothing.
Mira and Isa like most Vaugardian humans think 'shifters' are just fairytales, Odile knows shapeshifters are real but is only really familiar with how foxes like her father work, and Bonnie is actually able to sense some pretty major things but is a preteen dealing with a lot and hasn't even joined the party yet, so this pretty major misunderstanding is sustained for quite a while...
Cue the AUs' main focus being on the resulting party dynamic shifts as more and more canon divergence due to Sif's 'selkie stuff' (both cute and serious) comes into play, the party slowly realising something is up, and all of it hitting an eruption point right around the time of the 4th Orb/the loss of Siffrin's eye...
Some key world building notes: (Note: very summarised from my docs. I have like 20k+ words on this stuff XD)
The Island - Probably the most drastically different thing from canon here, the Island was not forgotten or erased here. Rather it is hidden away and permanently shrouded in Wish Craft generated fog from 'those without cloaks'. Side note: Sif is still unable to return home and continues to have some very plot critical memory problems but those are due to unrelated issues, which means yay I get to have Sif talk 'home culture' with the others in this =D Also idk why the King is freezing Vaugarde still. I've got a few ideas I'm not sure about and he's not in focus enough for it to even matter really, but random suggestions -especially those with possible selkie motivations- would be very much appreciated.
Selkie powers in my setting - Went into something of a deep dive regarding selkie folklore for this and did you know they have an absolute ton of seer/oracle based stuff going on?
From selkie being summoned by their human lovers shedding seven tears into the ocean, to a selkie man telling a former lover that he and their child will die at the hands by her genuinely good and loving future husband, to a selkie woman forseeing her fisherman husband about to die out in a storm just in time for her to swim over there and rescue him, etc.
So... Yeah. This AU has a lot of plot relevant sensory/seer stuff going on as well as the standard seal shapeshifter stuff (Islander selkie traditionally believe it to be the Universe talking with them, in the same way Wish Craft is talking to the Universe), and going off all the stuff I read decided it'd be most fitting if the general rule for how it all works is: - Selkie always passively have a bit of it going on (aka Sif's canon 'you sense someone nearby' stuff) which like most things can be enhanced with Craft use a bit. - Near perfect understanding of all 'connected' bodies of water (aka they know EXACTLY where the tasty fish are/will be and can probably get a general sense of location for most people on a boat) - Potentially get strong 'visions of the future' and/or instincts on what they need to do to avert an outcome when it comes to loved ones being in danger/distress.
They also maybe get to pull very fast, high power Wish Craft 'curses'/miracles' at idk, the cost of something major like their cloak or lives (mostly based off of the The Legend of Kópakonan where the whole island of Kalsoy was cursed with death by a selkie in retaliation for her husband and children being murdered) but not super attached to this idea past it being in 'seal shifter' stories in-setting.
Other non humans in setting and regional differences in shifters - Pretty much only selkie and selkie issues are in focus here, but just as a general thing, all non humans in setting are shapeshifters and originated from human ancestors who went crazy with the the Body Craft and/or used Wish Craft in some way.
Ka Bue in particular has a ton of them since yokai, with their origins being various sects/clans back in the warring eras going so nuts with trying to weaponize Body Craft (super soldiers, enhanced life spans, infiltration, exploiting attraction to furries, etc), that after some particularly high profile incidents (for an idea plz see: Kiyohime, Tamamo no Mae, Kachi-kachi Yama) and 'Body Craft misuse leading to shut down of the brain/vital organs' being the most common cause of death for 10+ years once peace time was established, eventually Ka Bue's authorities set their foot down and banned Body Craft altogether.
Currently the shifter population in Ka Bue is around 30% of the population, shifters are required to have ID regarding their forms (or potential forms if they're merely 'half'), and it's considered distasteful for a shifter to be in non human form outside of private settings/necessity and even ruder to ask a shifter about their non human forms if they haven't brought the topic up yet first (kinda like seeing/asking about someone's underwear or something XD).
In contrast the Vaugarde, Mwudu and Porteria region is extremely shifter sparce, with most of its original shifter population being the result of various Universe worshipping peoples (mostly small groups, like greek mystery cults) deciding to use a big Wish Craft ritual as some sort of religious rite and becoming shifters as a side effect of their primary Wish (usually stuff like 'we wish for us and our descendants to be one with You and the sea/air' or 'may we Change with the phases of the holy moon' etc) which granted them some pretty neat skills but also tended to come with some 'potentially nasty' drawbacks attached (see: selkie and swan maidens with their cloaks, werewolves Changing in both body and mind etc) Which er, lead to some issues born of lack of knowledge about this stuff, later some very nasty anti shifter sentiment in the region, and then around... IDK 200 to 300 years ago or so ended up exploding into violence and other very nasty things, with most shifters able to do so fleeing the region, and those that couldn't either enduring horrible conditions until they could escape/died or went deep into hiding, with the Island's Country being founded by the two later groups who used Wish Craft to hide their new home, erase awareness of their existence from their enemies (a short term, fully intentionally 'forgetting' blast centered specifically around shifters), and developed a LOT of culture and traditions regarding when, who and what can be told to 'outsiders' about themselves, Wish Craft, etc in order to keep their people safe.
There are shifters living in present in Vaugarde of course (anti shifter sentiment died back a LOT after most people stopped thinking they were real, and most modern day Change Believers are more likely to view these 'totally fictional/allegorical' beings as children/messengers of the Change God rather than 'evil demons who stole power by tearing apart the Change God's cloak for themselves and thus have to be hunted down and made to repent' propaganda take that was everywhere back then) but numbers actually living outside the Island as opposed to merely visiting remain low, since either the shifters know their history and stick firmly to their 'stay secret' traditions or quickly pick up on how oddly unknown shifters are around these parts and decide to err on the side of caution... Also 'trust worthy' humans who do learn about them (usually northern coastal folk, gee wonder why) tend to help cover them up so... Yeah =D
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And... Yeah!
This is hella long as is, so will stop here and ramble about the actual 'how this all affects our beloved Sif and Co plot and culture wise' stuff that is the actual meat of the AU in another post later, but hope this made for an interesting/idea provoking read, know that I have no issue with anyone using any of this for their own works (just please, don't use the 'Selkies under starlight' same story name unless it's actually a fanfic/fanart of my 'hopefully soon has a chapter/one shot up' fic/Ao3 series of the same name so people don't get confused), and I would love to chatter with you about any thoughts/questions you might have so...
Wishing you a good day =D
(sighes in relief finally getting this post finished after literal months. Pheeeeww~)
#fais fanfic rambles#isat fanfic#in stars and time#isat spoilers#isat#selkie#selkie au#shapeshifter au#isat siffrin#selkie!siffrin#worldbuilding notes#seriously though plz read soren's selkie!Sif au as its great#also um didn't go into it here but as can probably be guessed#by all the focus on actual selkie folklore and plotting out of a 'Vaugarde had anti shifter' history for the setting#this AU eventually explores some pretty 'classically uncomfortable' selkie folklore stuffs#(which I'm not tagging specifics here because it'll be in the character stuff if I have the guts to go into depth outside the actual fic)#but yeah#its mainly tragic backstory and part of the Island cultural stuff Sif runs afowl of with rather than directly in focus#while the actual fic itself is about miscommunication connecting despite that and the ISaT fam tripping into being a family precanon#with a little xenofiction/exploration of 'what kind of culture would selkie develop to be the way they are in myths' flare on the side#but felt the need to warn about it anyway for those who'd rather just nick all the other stuff and avoid that part like the plague#aaaand I'm just rambling in posting anxiety now so gonna hit post now and hope this is of literally any interest to anyone but me XD
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Im celebration of deltarune tomorrow, meet my version of Mike- this entity's local Secret Boss. concepts, doodles and other nonsense here thrown about
#mono-log#will i elaborate on mike here?.... maybe.#maybe not.#hes been brewing in my head for a year or two now so its. interesting that i show him off now#if i felt like it i would ramble about the lore i have so far. but im tired and just wanna show some drawings#plus a lot isnt too set in stone#deltarune#deltarune fanart#deltarune au#i guess#mike deltarune
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I HATE THIS I HATE IT HERE

WHAT ARE YOU DOING DC
“HE DOESN’T KNOW THE LIGHT. I’M NOT SURE HE WANTS TO.” HE’S LIKE 12???
YEAH MAYBE IT WAS EASIER BEING AN OPTIMIST BECAUSE BRUCE WAS IN A DAMN MANSION WITH ALL OF HIS PHYSICAL NEEDS MET ABOVE AND BEYOND,, AND HE HAD ALFRED
GEE, IT MIGHT BE HARDER FOR A KID ON THE STREETS WITH NO RESOURCES OR REALLY SAFE ADULT GOING THROUGH THE SAME THINGS TO TURN OUT EQUALLY OK

HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT AGGHHHH
NOT ONLY is it so gross for Alfred to demonize this LITERAL CHILDD, but also going this route is just totally less interesting writing-wise?? Like “oh Jason always had something wrong with him he was always going to be violent” removes all the tragedy and character change of him becoming Red Hood!!!!!!!
I HAVE SO MUCH MORE I COULD SAY BUT IM SO MAD
I WAS EXCITED FOR THIS COMIC BUT EVEN THE CHARACTERIZATION IN THE DESCRIPTION
IS ROUGH

AAAAAAAAA
It almost feels like they’re trying to make him Anakin Skywalker or something weird which I HATEE— also with him having nightmares about the future “eViL” version of himself


#there is just so much classism within the narrative of Jason as always doomed to be violent/reckless/‘got himself killed’#and that is perfectly encapsulated within this narrative so far#the flashback scenes with Jason seem sort of ok?? but I’m really worried by this conversation with Alfred and Jason’s beginning monologue#I guess we’ll see where this goes but ugh#the last time I really felt fulfilled by a Jason portrayal in comics was Juni Ba’s Boy Wonder last year#anyways sorry about that rant I usually don’t like to be that loud or angry on the internet but I really just needed to get out thise#thoughts and feelings that have been building up for a while now lol#this definitely isn’t the most coherent way I could have presented this argument but I needed to get it out lol#rant#my ramblings#dc#Jason Todd#comic:#Batman & robin: Jason Todd#issue 1
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HELPE ME I DONT KNOW HOW TO DESIGN but im like kind of thinking of an adventure time au where its kinda mechanically and steampunky. maybe ill do more with it im only rlly posting this cause i like how the finn full body looks LOLLL
ohhh steampunk save meeeee ouhhhhhhhhh (:
#art#artists on tumblr#adventure time fanart#adventure time#finn mertens#finn the human#princess bubblegum#bonnibel bubblegum#adventure time au#what else do i even tag lol#idk i cba to tag anything more#a bit of backstory i guess ive always really freaking liked steampunk as an aesthetic#more specifically just. technology in general#like gears n wires n whatever#cool as hell i have like 2 million ocs based on em#and so since im fixated on adventure time rn#i had the most moon brain idea#like “what if adventure time but cool and awesome!!!!”#and here we are#this actually started out from a doodle i did of fern as a robot#because i love fern and i love robots#but the doodle is kinda bad so im not posting it#the general plot of the au is mostly the same as base adventure time as of writing#though i may change it some to fit the au better#i will probably make more designs soon but we will see#it felt weird to draw finn in not the shirt and shorts#like boy that is not what u wear u silly goose#i do really kllike how it turned out tho#also i spent 2 decades tryna draw pb because i cant freakin g draw women#im rambling really hard SORRY LOLOLOL
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i think part of my problem is i lived with my best friend for two years of my life and have been searching for the same feeling of joy & acceptance & support ever since
#like I’ve sat down and had a think about it and the times I’ve felt the least lonely in the last 5+ years are when my roommates were close#friends I could pray with/laugh with/cry with/unmask with#something something you can’t keep trying to go back somewhere that doesn’t exist anymore you need to go forward#but the only way I can see myself thriving is if I can live with people/someone who feel(s) like home#and I know that can come with time and you meet new people and make new friends and settle down somewhere and slowly build yourself a life#but how do you do that without dying along the way#and I’m here in this new state and I’m trying to be content but there’s the very real possibility everything is going to change *again*#later this year and I just. I’m done I want it all to be over I want to get to find someone and commit my life to them and get to know we’r#we’re gonna figure it out together#and bitterness is so tempting right now bc unless God heals & transforms & really really surprises me#(all of which He CAN do but I just have never thought that was His desire for me); unless that happens I will probably be alone for the#rest of my life#and I can write essays on the importance of platonic friendships and how good and beautiful it is to value them but that grows weaker and#weaker the older you get the more all your friends seek marriage and find their other halves and you’re still. just. There#it’s nearly midnight and I should write a poem instead of processing in the tags of a post but really I may just go to bed#I’m so glad I have a phone call and prayer group to look forward to tomorrow#and the Bible study tonight was good <3 some things were hard about it but my soul was comforted#and I may have even more questions but at the very least right now I know God is Love#and that is the bottom line of any answer that I seek#….which I guess maybe loops back to the processing too. I know He is love I know He’s supposed to be sufficient#so what do you do when that doesn’t FEEL like enough#God I believe help my unbelief. please#elle rambles#[y]#/p
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Why did I read the tags? Why did I read the tags? I get so tired of bg3 fans complaining about Wyll's character at this point, talking about what could have been rather than contributing anything to rectify the issue in the fandom or at least promoting/engaging with the work of his fans (especially black fans), and I hate that those are the main posts that get attention in his tag. It's so fucking tiring watching y'all constantly be so negative, repeating the same stuff over and over again. People calling him uninteresting, saying he has no flaws, or saying that he doesn't struggle in his narrative. If you talked to any of his fans for 0.5 seconds, you would have counterarguments to all of these supposed issues y'all be listing but no, people would rather gripe and complain in this posturing way and act like they're actually doing something progressive by pointing out the same thing that his fans have known and been saying for a long time now. I'm not saying his character is above criticism, but most of the time the "criticism" are just talking points that have already been beaten to death by now. It's an echo chamber of pity and sorrow over a character that y'all likely wouldn't have and still don't interact with regardless. I'm so tired of, when I go into or get recommended posts from the tag of a character I like, it's an onslaught of negativity. Get over yourself, bg3 fandom, for real. Y'all lament over the loss of a character who you don't even spare a second thought to.
#fandom critical#if you're not guilty of any of this then guess what?#this post isn't about you!#the fact that I've felt the need to unfollow the tags of ships and characters that i enjoy in this fandom#just because of stuff like this#never had to deal with this to this extent#even in some of my worst fandom experiences#bluerose rambles#bg3 fandom critical
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See the problem is I can acknowledge that Ezio is probably a better written character than Altair and his interactions with other characters like Leonardo and Rosa are all handled fairly well but also there’s just something about Altair being such a fucking idiot that he basically has to run around the Holy Lands sulking while Malik calls him a little bitch that I don’t think any other ac protagonist has ever matched
#it’s very very funny to me#also tbh on a slightly more serious note#I think I liked how ac1 handled their Templars a lot better#especially with the confessionals#the confessionals in ac2 are kinda mid tbh like they almost feel talked on#while in ac1 it really felt like Altair was giving them a chance to get their last words out#their final testament#in ac2 theyMre kinda just rambling before they die#idk I guess I really like how ac1 handled it’s narrative it wasn’t perfect at all#but it was pretty fun#anyways that way too much info#assassin’s creed#altair#ezio auditore#ac2#ac1
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DO YOU SEE THE VISION.
#alpha beta robotus#david 8#like????#they are like the same#both feel wronged by humans and think that humanity is greatly flawed and does not deserve to survive#they both have a soft spot- dare i say love- a human woman#(ofc AB’s love is platonic- david’s love for shaw may have been romantic)#and like they were both injured (broken?) but saved by reagan and shaw respectively#who would be the first to truly care for them#and the robots would then learn to love them back#BUT#here’s where it gets interesting#shaw put david back together asap (im assuming)#wheras reagan kept ab contained and damaged#SO ab learned love without having the ability to act on his emotions#but david was immediately given the opportunity to jump on whatever he felt compelled to do#this leads to shaw’s (rip 😔) death and reagans success#i could write an essay on this#i just might#the only reason i even watched prometheus/covenant was for a comp class soooo#inside job#promethus#alien covenant#going through my drafts#this was originally from april 2024#in conclusion i think david could’ve really learned love if he wasn’t able to immediately act on his impulses after the events of prometheu#i really love ab’s character development and i would’ve loved to see the same from david#ah well#i guess that’s what makes it tragic#my ramblings
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